Is it just me or do you find yourself continuously dealing with mixed emotions??
Try as I might to focus on the joy, there seems to always be a contrasting emotion. For example:
Being able to feel the baby move a few times throughout the day....&....All the quiet time in between when I worry about whether the baby is still alive.
The relief of finally getting pregnant again....&....The inability to fully enjoy pregnancy.
Looking forward to having a baby....&....Knowing that his/her older brother is not here.
A colleague and a friend announcing news of their "accidental" pregnancies....&....Thoughts of my friends who are struggling with infertility.