Thursday, February 28, 2013

24 weeks

I am 24 weeks pregnant today, and so thankful to be able to say that. Baby is moving around regularly, and it's something that I subconsciously pay attention to day and night these days. The mid/late second trimester is a tough phase for me. It brings up a lot of anxiety and grief. I've had a couple of nights where I have woken up suddenly because the baby had not been moving and it put me in a near panic. Having had the successful pregnancy of my rainbow baby I didn't expect to feel quite this way. However, our bodies really do have a memory of their own. I have engaged a therapist to help work through this anxiety that has hit me lately. I am confident that in time and with the effort, I will be feeling more calm and confident soon. I am looking forward to reaching the viability milestone in about a month.