random musings

1) The other day while checking out at the grocery store, the clerk asked me: "Have you checked your eggs?" I looked at her and busted out laughing. "Um, yes, I have." Immediately my mind had gone to MY eggs-- talk about all things fertility on the brain. After 4 IUIs and 1 IVF, I know way more than I ever wanted to about my eggies.

2) I am getting huge. Do I really have 3 months more of growing? For a few weeks now, I have been at the point where strangers will confidently comment on my being pregnant. Gone are the awkward in-between stage and glances by those trying to figure out if I am indeed pregnant or just fat.

3) For the past few weeks I have felt really good with this pregnancy. Once I passed the point where we lost baby S, it is like a calm came over me. Sure, I have days of anxiety. I am hyper aware of the baby's movements and do worry about things like a cord accident or another stillbirth later in the pregnancy. But for now, I feel like I am finally able to enjoy pregnancy as much as possible (hope it stays this way). I feel happier than I have in a long time and I feel it showing on my face.

4) Lately I am getting inundated by all sorts of unsolicited suggestions regarding baby registry, labor and delivery, breastfeeding etc. etc. My doctor had warned me of this and said to take it all in but that we will figure everything out on our own. Good advice. So I basically just thank people for their thoughts and move on. Honestly, I am so not concerned with what is the best baby monitor or swing, how many months are best to breastfeed, etc. All I care about is bringing this baby into the world alive and healthy.