Tuesday, October 27, 2009

positive news :)

I received the results of my beta- and I'm pregnant! I was hopeful waiting on the news but was also bracing myself for more disappointment. My RE called me to give me the news. Immediately I felt a huge wave of relief sweep over me. It has been a roller coaster of a journey and it feels like there's so much at stake with IVF.

On top of feeling relieved, I am of course am happy. But I can help but also feel nervous. I'm nervous that I won't make it through the first trimester. And I'm nervous about after that. I'm afraid of more loss. I am afraid of my body letting me down again.

However, I can't think about these worries. I must focus on the happy part and remain optimistic. For now, I am trying to stay preoccupied until my first ultrasound in a couple of weeks.

My utmost gratitude to the universe for a BFP. I am truly so grateful.